29w 1d!!
My 29w appt was "uneventful" which is actually what you want every appointment to be like. Hubs picked me up from my Mom's and we headed there. I always do myself up a little any time I leave the house since its only 1 day a week for appts and MAYBE one more time if we go to Starbucks or something.
The twins had a BPP (biophysical profile) scheduled. Basically its an u/s that measures 4 areas and each area can get a most of 2points, with a max total of 8pts. They also keep track how quickly the baby passes/fails the test. I can't remember every area, but I think its watching the diaphragm "practice" breathing, good levels of amniotic fluid, heartbeats and I think "muscle tone"?? I could be wrong on the last one but I vaguely remember that. Basically they just see that the babies have their limbs tight against their bodies instead of just floating around. Each baby passed, with an A+ in 5mins... 8 points each!! Woo hoo!!! It was by far the fastest u/s to date. I didn't have to get a vag u/s done... the first time in 10 weeks I didn't have to!
We went upstairs and Carol hooked me up to the contraction & fetal monitors. I only contracted twice in 45mins. Which is about normal for me. I usually have 2-3 an hour and sometimes even get 4- but switching positions, peeing, or drinking water helps. My uterus "activity" was all over the place, still pretty irritated even when just sitting still. Dr. G came in and we talked... he said he's happy I'm still pregnant! SO am I thank god! I asked his past experiences with this type of situation... .9cm cervix, funneling, 1-2cm dilated, twins, irritable uterus & contractions. He said that he's had some women go close to full term and other delivered earlier. I imagined that's what he would say, but that does give me more hope regardless. He doesn't want to do any more vag cervical exams bc now that I am 29w I'm getting safer and safer and they don't want to stimulate anything up there. So I guess we just wait... it's been a wait and see since 19w, but at least I was getting monitored regularly so I knew what's going on, but now I don't. For all I know a baby's head is half way down my hotbox and I'm like 5cm dilated with a bulging bag! I'm sure that's NOT The case, but you never know. My labor with Ava progressed so quickly, that I'm nervous for the 2nd time around.
I go back next Weds-30w, WOOHOO!!!!!!!! I'll have a full u/s with lengths and estimated weights of the babies. I can't wait for that!!
The worst part of my days are the nights... I get up to pee about 2-3 times in addition taking my Procardia at 5am, Every time I try to get up it's like I'm sleeping in a tub of cement. I struggle to find the perfect way to sit up. Do you just go for the gusto and sit straight up?!? Everytime I do I feel like my belly becomes a torpedo and is going to explode. Usually I try to prop myself up on my side and slowly swing my legs around to the edge of the bed. It's a scary situation. We all stumble to the bathroom at night, but when you have two bowling balls centered in the front its even harder to find your way. At least one time I bang my knee on to the bed post or elbow on the door frame. I LOVE being pregnant, but I'm starting to imagine myself with the struggles of just getting up to pee.
Its amazing how far we've come in the past 10weeks... when I was 19w and got the first news of my weak cervix I was terrified we were going to lose these babies. I wasn't even thinking ahead. I wasn't thinking much of names, or futures. I was just thinking about heart break. Then days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months and now we are only technically 11weeks from our DUE DATE, and 8weeks from Full Term! Can you believe it?! We have less time to go and I couldn't be happier about it! We're getting to the point where we can finally take a breath of relief... although we need to get further along, we're happy!!! I know I'm getting to a good place myself bc I'm starting to think about.. *gulp* labor.... EEEKKKKKKK! I had a vaginal delivery with Beebs and plan to this time around as well... I just hope I don't have to labor 95% of the time un-medicated this time around... that was rough!
This is an uneventful post, but I'm tired! Goodnight!
xoxo
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Monday, July 22, 2013
Birthday Girl!!!
28w 5D!
I know I know... two posts in one day?!?!? It's been a whirlwind since I got out of the hospital and I hate if my posts get too long.
I'm officially old. Or at least according to my almost 19yr old sister. Once I became a mom she told me I was pretty much old, now that I am officially the big 3-0 (yesterday) it's confirmed. I'm old!
I haven't been dreading turning 30, but I did feel kind of bummed I didn't initially get to spend my Birthday the way I wanted. Rewind to July 21 2012. Hubs and I were all dresssed up. Ava went to a friends house for a "sleep over" while Daddy & I went out for dinner and drinks. We were looking pretty fancy! We had a delicious dinner and extrememly strong drinks. It was a great night! We talked about my big 30th and what we wanted to do. We talked about Vegas or Miami. We originally were going to wait until after my 30th to try for #2. We were going to do my "Dirty Thirty" big! At the end of 2012 Hubs initiated the baby convo... this was music to my ears, bc I was ready to start sooner than later. We talked about starting a few months into the New Year. I had a couple weddings to be in and events to go too. When I talked to my OB about our plans he suggested that I get off the pill so my body could try to regulate. It wasn't exactly hard getting pregnant with Ava, but that's only bc 3 months into trying I had an u/s done only to find out I didn't ovulate. I took a round of Clomid the next month and BAM.... baby! Had we not, it would have take awhile.
Anyways.... he said to get off the pill and see how my body reacts. Especially since I had some serious post partum complications with Ava (placenta accreta- too much to add to this post). So I did, first month no issues, I never ovulated... good because we wanted to wait until Feb-April ish. The next month... No ovulation either. Ok, I'm not ovulating... o wait... I am, just EXTREMELY late. We got pregnant on a random weekend. Marc had training in Ohio (we were still in TX at the time) for 2 weeks. I found a last minute cheap flight so I booked it and Ava and I went back to our hometown to visit everyone and Daddy. You can imagine how the rest went down and I'll spare you the explicit details, this about sums it up.... Harmons, McDonald's & The Cambria
This post has gone completely off topic and I apologize... so anyways. I didn't imagine we would get pregnant right away or even on our own. But we did and we couldn't be happier! Not to mention we have two gummy bears on the way instead of one. I'm still amazed by that! Even though we were pregnant I still had big plans for my 30th. We would go somewhere, overnight. Just Hubs & I... or maybe Beebs too! But everything changed drastically almost 10weeks ago. As my Birthday drew nearer, I really didn't talk about it to much. I wasn't so bummed about being sober and stuck on a couch... but it wasn't what I had in mind. I love Birthdays, getting dressed up, going out for a fancy dinner and celebrating. It's amazing though how your mindset changes... maybe its the age (Ha!) but I was very content with staying home when the time came. I did feel emotional the day of my Birthday. Little things were making me sad, for no reason. I think I took for granted all the things we usually do on our Birthday's and not being able to leave the house. I got myself all dressed up... washed my hair, put on some make up, and slipped into my new Maxi Maternity dress my mom got me. I felt great!!! My family all came over. We laughed, talked and ate (& I continuted to eat... and eat... and eat!) It's not about what you DO or where you GO for your Birthday, its about the people who want to spend it with you and who make the attempt to make you feel good when they can probably tell you're not in the best spirits. I must admit, I have a pretty awesome family.
That being said... Mark your calendars for Jan 21, 2014. I will be celebrating my 30.5th Birthday!! LOL
Next doc appt is weds (29w) at 11:30a. Hoping and praying for a good appointment!
xoxo
I know I know... two posts in one day?!?!? It's been a whirlwind since I got out of the hospital and I hate if my posts get too long.
I'm officially old. Or at least according to my almost 19yr old sister. Once I became a mom she told me I was pretty much old, now that I am officially the big 3-0 (yesterday) it's confirmed. I'm old!
I haven't been dreading turning 30, but I did feel kind of bummed I didn't initially get to spend my Birthday the way I wanted. Rewind to July 21 2012. Hubs and I were all dresssed up. Ava went to a friends house for a "sleep over" while Daddy & I went out for dinner and drinks. We were looking pretty fancy! We had a delicious dinner and extrememly strong drinks. It was a great night! We talked about my big 30th and what we wanted to do. We talked about Vegas or Miami. We originally were going to wait until after my 30th to try for #2. We were going to do my "Dirty Thirty" big! At the end of 2012 Hubs initiated the baby convo... this was music to my ears, bc I was ready to start sooner than later. We talked about starting a few months into the New Year. I had a couple weddings to be in and events to go too. When I talked to my OB about our plans he suggested that I get off the pill so my body could try to regulate. It wasn't exactly hard getting pregnant with Ava, but that's only bc 3 months into trying I had an u/s done only to find out I didn't ovulate. I took a round of Clomid the next month and BAM.... baby! Had we not, it would have take awhile.
Anyways.... he said to get off the pill and see how my body reacts. Especially since I had some serious post partum complications with Ava (placenta accreta- too much to add to this post). So I did, first month no issues, I never ovulated... good because we wanted to wait until Feb-April ish. The next month... No ovulation either. Ok, I'm not ovulating... o wait... I am, just EXTREMELY late. We got pregnant on a random weekend. Marc had training in Ohio (we were still in TX at the time) for 2 weeks. I found a last minute cheap flight so I booked it and Ava and I went back to our hometown to visit everyone and Daddy. You can imagine how the rest went down and I'll spare you the explicit details, this about sums it up.... Harmons, McDonald's & The Cambria
This post has gone completely off topic and I apologize... so anyways. I didn't imagine we would get pregnant right away or even on our own. But we did and we couldn't be happier! Not to mention we have two gummy bears on the way instead of one. I'm still amazed by that! Even though we were pregnant I still had big plans for my 30th. We would go somewhere, overnight. Just Hubs & I... or maybe Beebs too! But everything changed drastically almost 10weeks ago. As my Birthday drew nearer, I really didn't talk about it to much. I wasn't so bummed about being sober and stuck on a couch... but it wasn't what I had in mind. I love Birthdays, getting dressed up, going out for a fancy dinner and celebrating. It's amazing though how your mindset changes... maybe its the age (Ha!) but I was very content with staying home when the time came. I did feel emotional the day of my Birthday. Little things were making me sad, for no reason. I think I took for granted all the things we usually do on our Birthday's and not being able to leave the house. I got myself all dressed up... washed my hair, put on some make up, and slipped into my new Maxi Maternity dress my mom got me. I felt great!!! My family all came over. We laughed, talked and ate (& I continuted to eat... and eat... and eat!) It's not about what you DO or where you GO for your Birthday, its about the people who want to spend it with you and who make the attempt to make you feel good when they can probably tell you're not in the best spirits. I must admit, I have a pretty awesome family.
That being said... Mark your calendars for Jan 21, 2014. I will be celebrating my 30.5th Birthday!! LOL
Next doc appt is weds (29w) at 11:30a. Hoping and praying for a good appointment!
xoxo
Birthday Girl!
Hospital Details
28w 5d!
I wanted to recap some things from my hospital visit last week. It was such an overwhelming experience with good and bad news and almost zero sleep. I wonder if "night shift" nurses make fun of their patients, I probably would! The first night I was hooked up to a contraction monitor and baby monitor (occasionally), a pulse ox on my left index finger, a blood pressure cuff on my left arm and an IV Port rammed into the top of my right hand. My blood pressure was pretty low as a side effect from the Procardia so they wanted to get readings through out the night. Every 30mins the damn machine would automatically take a reading... so that means... every 30mins I would wake up to a feeling like someone is giving me an indian burn and trying to rip my arm out of its socket. I'd wake up in a flash and grab at my bicep with my right arm and usually give out a scream, until I realized that Lord Voldemort wasn't trying to kill me. After this happened about 4times I finally got used to it. When the nurses come in to check the babies and my vitals I felt like my body was made of cement and I couldn't move fast enough to wake up for them. I'd always try and act like I wasn't sleeping, bc of who sleeps at 3am??! I'm sure I looked like a pretty peach trying to sit up and make chit chat while they handed me my meds and checked my belly.
The next night was a little better. No continuous BP readings since my levels normalized. But as soon as I would fall asleep I would hear this faint beeping... what the hell. I realized it was the pulse ox on my finger. So I'd adjust it and go back to sleep. It happens again. I adjust it, it stops beeping and I go back to sleep. Finally on the 3rd time it started beeping again and sat straight up and forcefully shoved my finger with the pulse ox on it towards my eye to inspect it... WHAT THE HELL, it's on, it's in position this makes no sense, why is it beeping. I throw myself back on the bed and just say "whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy". I put my hand on my chest and try to sleep again. Zzzzzzz beep beep zzzzz beep beep beep beep. This time I sit up again and grab the machine next to my bed and force it up against my bed rails and stare at the numbers... why are you beeping you stupid @sshole?! The pulse ox was reading 93% and flashing... ok, what does that mean? I know I'm breathing and feel fine! So I call my nurse and tell her whats going on... "ooooo your pulse ox goes down when you're sleeping... were you trying to sleep?" ummmm.... it was probably 1:30am, I was definitely trying trying to sleep. She came in my room and adjust the median to 90%. I suspiciously laid back back down and eventually fell asleep. I got woken up at 5am by my Nurse for my next dose of Meds. Again, I try to play it cool like I wasn't just snoring with my eyes rolled in the back of my head, my mouth wide open and slober coming out. She told me the Resident Doc was here already and he would be by to see me around 7am. 6:50am comes and in walks the very young Dr. R to discuss things... I had to ask him to hold on.... I mean I'm ASLEEP. What are we even talking about right now? I was in that distorted state still where I felt like he could have been a serial killer ready to cut my achilles tendon or something. I even caught myself trying to fix my ponytail. As if having a perfect messy bun would make up for the smeared mascara around my eyes, and dried slober crust on my chin. He said he ordered another u/s and a tech would be up within an hour to rescan me. If all was the same, I could leave once Dr. M assessed me one more time. If it was worse... I'd probably be in another night.
If I wasn't so damned tired I would have been really nervous about the scan. I laid back down and remember the u/s tech trying to wake me up 15mins later. Here we go again... I shoot up in the bed, tell her good morning and ask her what the weather's like. Really? Does it even matter at 7:15am? Then I catch myself falling back into the bed and going back to asleep... "ashley, dear, I need to do your scan. I'm sure you'd like to pee before we get started... ok?!?" I say "yes'm" as if I'm responding to my mom when she's waking me up for school, but keep sleeping. I saw myself get up and go into the bathroom, but all reality was that I was still in the bed with my eyes shut. It didn't last long before the tech started to get her machine together in the most noisy way possible. I get it... I'm up! I go to the bathroom, pee and freshen up as much as possible. In the hospital lights I look like I Jaundice or something, not a good look.
She looks at the babies first. They were wide awake! They looked great as usual. Hearbeats, fluid, kidneys, bladder, etc :) Then she did the trans vaginal u/s and measured. Still the same. .9cm or might as well just say 9mm. She called Dr. M to see if I could get dressed or if he wanted to check me. He looked at her scans remotely and confirmed. I got dressed and laid back in the bed. I've had a lot going on and tools already fishing around inside my hotbox all before 7:30am. I wish all my days were that productive. The tech powered down the machine and wished me luck. She also said "I'm sorry you have to get so many trans vaginal ultrasounds. I saw your chart, you've had at least one a week for the last 9 weeks". I told her thanks and that it was ok because I don't mind it. She kinda looked at me weird and instantly felt like a perv. That's not what I meant... but now I'm embarrassed and hope she doesn't have to scan me again! I meant I don't mind the checks bc I'd rather know what's going on with my body... not the "action" I'm getting once a week from the wand. Although action once a week would be nice, just not that kind. Here I go again. This just sounds really bad.
All in all the stay was ok... It started off fine and optimistic until Thursday morning. I think I'm still holding up pretty well. I had a mini cry fest in the Hospital when I was alone, but it felt good to get it out. I'm not even sure why I was crying. Maybe it's better that way. Since I've been home things are good. I don't "feel great" but I'm hanging in there. We've almost made it 10weeks since we first got the news. I have a lot to grateful for!!!
xoxo
I wanted to recap some things from my hospital visit last week. It was such an overwhelming experience with good and bad news and almost zero sleep. I wonder if "night shift" nurses make fun of their patients, I probably would! The first night I was hooked up to a contraction monitor and baby monitor (occasionally), a pulse ox on my left index finger, a blood pressure cuff on my left arm and an IV Port rammed into the top of my right hand. My blood pressure was pretty low as a side effect from the Procardia so they wanted to get readings through out the night. Every 30mins the damn machine would automatically take a reading... so that means... every 30mins I would wake up to a feeling like someone is giving me an indian burn and trying to rip my arm out of its socket. I'd wake up in a flash and grab at my bicep with my right arm and usually give out a scream, until I realized that Lord Voldemort wasn't trying to kill me. After this happened about 4times I finally got used to it. When the nurses come in to check the babies and my vitals I felt like my body was made of cement and I couldn't move fast enough to wake up for them. I'd always try and act like I wasn't sleeping, bc of who sleeps at 3am??! I'm sure I looked like a pretty peach trying to sit up and make chit chat while they handed me my meds and checked my belly.
The next night was a little better. No continuous BP readings since my levels normalized. But as soon as I would fall asleep I would hear this faint beeping... what the hell. I realized it was the pulse ox on my finger. So I'd adjust it and go back to sleep. It happens again. I adjust it, it stops beeping and I go back to sleep. Finally on the 3rd time it started beeping again and sat straight up and forcefully shoved my finger with the pulse ox on it towards my eye to inspect it... WHAT THE HELL, it's on, it's in position this makes no sense, why is it beeping. I throw myself back on the bed and just say "whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy". I put my hand on my chest and try to sleep again. Zzzzzzz beep beep zzzzz beep beep beep beep. This time I sit up again and grab the machine next to my bed and force it up against my bed rails and stare at the numbers... why are you beeping you stupid @sshole?! The pulse ox was reading 93% and flashing... ok, what does that mean? I know I'm breathing and feel fine! So I call my nurse and tell her whats going on... "ooooo your pulse ox goes down when you're sleeping... were you trying to sleep?" ummmm.... it was probably 1:30am, I was definitely trying trying to sleep. She came in my room and adjust the median to 90%. I suspiciously laid back back down and eventually fell asleep. I got woken up at 5am by my Nurse for my next dose of Meds. Again, I try to play it cool like I wasn't just snoring with my eyes rolled in the back of my head, my mouth wide open and slober coming out. She told me the Resident Doc was here already and he would be by to see me around 7am. 6:50am comes and in walks the very young Dr. R to discuss things... I had to ask him to hold on.... I mean I'm ASLEEP. What are we even talking about right now? I was in that distorted state still where I felt like he could have been a serial killer ready to cut my achilles tendon or something. I even caught myself trying to fix my ponytail. As if having a perfect messy bun would make up for the smeared mascara around my eyes, and dried slober crust on my chin. He said he ordered another u/s and a tech would be up within an hour to rescan me. If all was the same, I could leave once Dr. M assessed me one more time. If it was worse... I'd probably be in another night.
If I wasn't so damned tired I would have been really nervous about the scan. I laid back down and remember the u/s tech trying to wake me up 15mins later. Here we go again... I shoot up in the bed, tell her good morning and ask her what the weather's like. Really? Does it even matter at 7:15am? Then I catch myself falling back into the bed and going back to asleep... "ashley, dear, I need to do your scan. I'm sure you'd like to pee before we get started... ok?!?" I say "yes'm" as if I'm responding to my mom when she's waking me up for school, but keep sleeping. I saw myself get up and go into the bathroom, but all reality was that I was still in the bed with my eyes shut. It didn't last long before the tech started to get her machine together in the most noisy way possible. I get it... I'm up! I go to the bathroom, pee and freshen up as much as possible. In the hospital lights I look like I Jaundice or something, not a good look.
She looks at the babies first. They were wide awake! They looked great as usual. Hearbeats, fluid, kidneys, bladder, etc :) Then she did the trans vaginal u/s and measured. Still the same. .9cm or might as well just say 9mm. She called Dr. M to see if I could get dressed or if he wanted to check me. He looked at her scans remotely and confirmed. I got dressed and laid back in the bed. I've had a lot going on and tools already fishing around inside my hotbox all before 7:30am. I wish all my days were that productive. The tech powered down the machine and wished me luck. She also said "I'm sorry you have to get so many trans vaginal ultrasounds. I saw your chart, you've had at least one a week for the last 9 weeks". I told her thanks and that it was ok because I don't mind it. She kinda looked at me weird and instantly felt like a perv. That's not what I meant... but now I'm embarrassed and hope she doesn't have to scan me again! I meant I don't mind the checks bc I'd rather know what's going on with my body... not the "action" I'm getting once a week from the wand. Although action once a week would be nice, just not that kind. Here I go again. This just sounds really bad.
All in all the stay was ok... It started off fine and optimistic until Thursday morning. I think I'm still holding up pretty well. I had a mini cry fest in the Hospital when I was alone, but it felt good to get it out. I'm not even sure why I was crying. Maybe it's better that way. Since I've been home things are good. I don't "feel great" but I'm hanging in there. We've almost made it 10weeks since we first got the news. I have a lot to grateful for!!!
xoxo
Beebs keeping me company!
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Home from the Hospital!
Thursday:: 7/18/13::::::: 28w 1d
It's about 1:15pm and I'm still in the hospital, I was hoping by now I would be at my Mom's sleeping! Yesterday started out as an easy transition. We got checked in around 8:30am and got comfy. I had my first dose of Procardia around 11:30am. Things seemed to go well. Babies looked great on the u/s and I was adjusting well to the meds. I thought I would be able to blog more, but with a "pulse ox" on your finger it makes it hard to type. Plus I was having a lot of overwhelming feeling about everything and not really up for it. I'm going to have to stay another night bc even though things looked good, my blood pressure was really low. I already have low/normal BP, but it got really low. So they hooked me up to the blood pressure cuff and it went off automatically every 30mins last night... ummm... yeah that's not fun. It seemed every time I dozed off into a deep sleep I woke up feeling like someone was giving me an Indian Burn on my bicep and trying to rip my arm off. You can imagine the "panic" I felt during this. I think after about 3hours of it, I was finally able to just sleep through it. The next morning Dr. McD came in to check my vitals and things from the night. It looked as though I contracted a lot and my uterus showed looks of irritability. He ordered a trans vaginal u/s to see if it changed my Cervical Length... low and behold... a new all time low for me .9cm. Take a look at a ruler... that's not much "muscle" to keep 2 babies from falling out of my hotbox. Surprisingly I handled the news well... Maybe actually being in the hospital helped? Dr. M said I needed to stay another night to monitor my BP and also check my length again in the morning.
Saturday July 20th:::::::::: 28w 3d
Ok- so the post is officially "current". I got to come home yesterday. My BP evened out back to my normal readings. I had another u/s and my length is still the same at .9cm. Dr. M said that I'm free to go home. I'm still contracting, but not regularly and my Uterus is still very irritable, but there isn't anything else that can really be done right now. I'm only on 60mg of Procardia a day instead of 80mg bc of the Blood Pressure issue. I am 1-2cm dilated as well. Usually that's not a huge deal, but since my "cervix is trying to do something, it means something"- Dr. M. Being that I'm not in active labor they decided I would be better off to get my rest at home. If labor does come on full circle they will try to postpone it was a Magnesium drip. I'm just hoping I keep these little Tweebs in as long as possible! When I got back to my Mom's, I wasn't feeling very well. After getting things situated I laid down for a nap... I remember Hubs coming in to give my next dose of Procardia, although I felt like I was dreaming the whole thing. I slept almost 5hours! Afterwards I still wasn't feeling well... I'm not sure if was the meds, lack of sleep or thoughts of everything (probably a combo of all), but I just couldn't get myself together. I ended up having a crying moment for no reason... I think I just needed it. This is all so overwhelming. We had a visit from a NICU nurse and that was great, but also scary. I'm still just trying to wrap my head around everything... when I was this "thin" or effaced with Ava, I had her exactly a week later. Mind you I was still working full time and doing stuff around the house and was always out and about... but this time I have two babies in there! I have more details about my hospital stay, but for now I just wanted to give yall a quick update.
I'm currently on my mom's couch... getting ready to head up to bed and I feel SO HOT... no one in the house is hot. I don't have much clothes on. I'm hydrated & relaxing and no temp. It makes me uneasy bc I had a fever when I was in labor with Ava. I'm hoping its just another minimal side effect of the new meds. Owell... I need some rest.
Thank you for all your concerns, thoughts, prayers, texts, etc while I was in the Hospital! We're all hanging in there and babies are getting bigger, stronger and healthier by the day!
xoxo
It's about 1:15pm and I'm still in the hospital, I was hoping by now I would be at my Mom's sleeping! Yesterday started out as an easy transition. We got checked in around 8:30am and got comfy. I had my first dose of Procardia around 11:30am. Things seemed to go well. Babies looked great on the u/s and I was adjusting well to the meds. I thought I would be able to blog more, but with a "pulse ox" on your finger it makes it hard to type. Plus I was having a lot of overwhelming feeling about everything and not really up for it. I'm going to have to stay another night bc even though things looked good, my blood pressure was really low. I already have low/normal BP, but it got really low. So they hooked me up to the blood pressure cuff and it went off automatically every 30mins last night... ummm... yeah that's not fun. It seemed every time I dozed off into a deep sleep I woke up feeling like someone was giving me an Indian Burn on my bicep and trying to rip my arm off. You can imagine the "panic" I felt during this. I think after about 3hours of it, I was finally able to just sleep through it. The next morning Dr. McD came in to check my vitals and things from the night. It looked as though I contracted a lot and my uterus showed looks of irritability. He ordered a trans vaginal u/s to see if it changed my Cervical Length... low and behold... a new all time low for me .9cm. Take a look at a ruler... that's not much "muscle" to keep 2 babies from falling out of my hotbox. Surprisingly I handled the news well... Maybe actually being in the hospital helped? Dr. M said I needed to stay another night to monitor my BP and also check my length again in the morning.
Saturday July 20th:::::::::: 28w 3d
Ok- so the post is officially "current". I got to come home yesterday. My BP evened out back to my normal readings. I had another u/s and my length is still the same at .9cm. Dr. M said that I'm free to go home. I'm still contracting, but not regularly and my Uterus is still very irritable, but there isn't anything else that can really be done right now. I'm only on 60mg of Procardia a day instead of 80mg bc of the Blood Pressure issue. I am 1-2cm dilated as well. Usually that's not a huge deal, but since my "cervix is trying to do something, it means something"- Dr. M. Being that I'm not in active labor they decided I would be better off to get my rest at home. If labor does come on full circle they will try to postpone it was a Magnesium drip. I'm just hoping I keep these little Tweebs in as long as possible! When I got back to my Mom's, I wasn't feeling very well. After getting things situated I laid down for a nap... I remember Hubs coming in to give my next dose of Procardia, although I felt like I was dreaming the whole thing. I slept almost 5hours! Afterwards I still wasn't feeling well... I'm not sure if was the meds, lack of sleep or thoughts of everything (probably a combo of all), but I just couldn't get myself together. I ended up having a crying moment for no reason... I think I just needed it. This is all so overwhelming. We had a visit from a NICU nurse and that was great, but also scary. I'm still just trying to wrap my head around everything... when I was this "thin" or effaced with Ava, I had her exactly a week later. Mind you I was still working full time and doing stuff around the house and was always out and about... but this time I have two babies in there! I have more details about my hospital stay, but for now I just wanted to give yall a quick update.
I'm currently on my mom's couch... getting ready to head up to bed and I feel SO HOT... no one in the house is hot. I don't have much clothes on. I'm hydrated & relaxing and no temp. It makes me uneasy bc I had a fever when I was in labor with Ava. I'm hoping its just another minimal side effect of the new meds. Owell... I need some rest.
Thank you for all your concerns, thoughts, prayers, texts, etc while I was in the Hospital! We're all hanging in there and babies are getting bigger, stronger and healthier by the day!
xoxo
Monday, July 15, 2013
"B*tch Don't Kill my Vibe"
27w 5d!!!
Don't mind the title! Its the name of a song and how I felt today!
We are getting closer and closer and older and older! This is a really big week for us... of course every week is important, but this is the week I get another round of shots & my meds are switched. Not to mention I'll be 28w on Weds!!
Hubs, Beebs & I went to the Hospital nice and early this morning to get Shot 1 of 2. When I got there, they had a chart for me and said that they had me setup to be admitted today. I told them it had to be a mistake... that I was supposed to get the Celestone shots today & tomorrow and then admitted on Weds. The RN said she would look into it, but everything pointed to today and they were ready for me. I could feel a tiny bit of anxiety starting to build, especially when I blurted out... "BUT I haven't even shaved my legs today!!!!!". The nurses in the office started laughing, yet I didn't feel any relief. I looked at my Hubs and he seemed concerned. We weren't ready for this. Of course if I was in Labor, that's another story, but here we were... nothing with us except our 20month old. It was not an ideal situation.
The RN took me back to L&D Room while they called my docs. She asked me to still get into the hospital gown and relax in the bed. The room was surprisingly spacious with a nice rocking chair and a bed that pulls out into a couch. I don't think I've ever had a panic attack before... but while I got in the bed I had a mini freak attack. I wasn't prepared for this to happen TODAY. I am prepared for this to happen in TWO DAYS. I start rambling to Marc about what were we going to do? We have Ava here... We don't have cell chargers, snacks, change of clothes, lap tops, etc... He just looked at me and said "Its ok, let's just wait and see what they say... we can always get that stuff". The RN came back in and said Dr. G confirmed he wanted me admitted, but he was going to discuss with Dr. M. A little more panic set in... I told the RN the whole reason I'm here is to get the Steroid Shots in case the babies ARE BORN when they switch my meds on Weds. That way it helps give them a little more of a head start. She agreed with me... It's a good thing I was adamant about what was supposed to happen. I told her if the docs want to admit me, I will stay... but that wasn't the plan and I just need confirmation.
At this point Beebs is begging to watch "Elmo". So I find Disney on the tv and we lay in my bed watching "Sophia the First" while Hubs sits next to us trying to get some work done. I think I seriously was freaking out... I texted my Mom the news and ironically she was only working a half day due to a Doc at her office needing to leave for Medical Reasons. At least we'd have someone to come get Ava and bring our stuff. I immediately felt some relief. Finally the RN came back in and confirmed... just the Celestone shot today and tomorrow we'd be admitted Weds... WOOHOO!!!! I mean here I am.. NO SHOWER, because I thought it would be a quick shot and I would go back home and nap since it was earlier than usual, dirty hair, hairy legs, chipped nail polish and no toothbrush!
She left again to get the shot... I started thinking about the last time at 24w and how Day 2 hurt REALLY bad. This is only Day 1 again and it was easy. She grabbed my big ol butt cheek. Not bad. I guess we'll see how tomorrow's goes! I go back in around 10am for the 2nd dose.
I've had a lot of really good days over the weeks. I've of course had a few bad days were I just get really sad. It's more of a selfish pity party for myself. I know this is what's best for the babies, but when I look back at how long this journey has been, it exhausts me. I was on Modified Bed Rest for 5weeks and Strict Bed Rest for almost 4weeks. 9weeks ago I was terrified that these babies might not be able to hold up inside me until the 27/28w mark. It seemed SO FAR AWAY... and here we are! Almost 28w and looking great! I've missed some fun times with friends and family bc I'm stuck on this comfy couch or my bed. I know there will be more fun times next summer... I don't feel bad thinking like this. I'm only human and this isn't a situation I was expecting or prepared for. So considering everything I think I'm handling it really well.
A big part of me is ready to meet these little girls! I know its too early, but I remember feeling like this with Ava. When you find out what you're having, think about names, have a baby shower, decorate the nursery, etc... unfortunately there probably won't be a nursery decorating day. Heck, the babies don't even have their own room. There are tubs and tubs of Ava's baby clothes in the basement, along with her toys, equipment, bottles, etc... I really want to go through everything, but I can't. I feel like I'm missing out on some of the really fun processes you go through when expecting a child and I think that makes me the most sad. I want to Celebrate these little girls BEFORE they come, but it doesn't look like that's going to happen. Every night before bed I check on Ava and say my prayers and say my thanks for all our Blessings. I pray they come as close to 36w as possible... if I make it that far, I'm sure all my restrictions will be released and we can start preparing the way parents should! Whether this is your first child or 5th, all children deserve parents who are excited and ready to prepare for their arrival!
I'll update again tomorrow... this is already getting too long and I'm getting hungry!
xoxo
We are getting closer and closer and older and older! This is a really big week for us... of course every week is important, but this is the week I get another round of shots & my meds are switched. Not to mention I'll be 28w on Weds!!
Hubs, Beebs & I went to the Hospital nice and early this morning to get Shot 1 of 2. When I got there, they had a chart for me and said that they had me setup to be admitted today. I told them it had to be a mistake... that I was supposed to get the Celestone shots today & tomorrow and then admitted on Weds. The RN said she would look into it, but everything pointed to today and they were ready for me. I could feel a tiny bit of anxiety starting to build, especially when I blurted out... "BUT I haven't even shaved my legs today!!!!!". The nurses in the office started laughing, yet I didn't feel any relief. I looked at my Hubs and he seemed concerned. We weren't ready for this. Of course if I was in Labor, that's another story, but here we were... nothing with us except our 20month old. It was not an ideal situation.
The RN took me back to L&D Room while they called my docs. She asked me to still get into the hospital gown and relax in the bed. The room was surprisingly spacious with a nice rocking chair and a bed that pulls out into a couch. I don't think I've ever had a panic attack before... but while I got in the bed I had a mini freak attack. I wasn't prepared for this to happen TODAY. I am prepared for this to happen in TWO DAYS. I start rambling to Marc about what were we going to do? We have Ava here... We don't have cell chargers, snacks, change of clothes, lap tops, etc... He just looked at me and said "Its ok, let's just wait and see what they say... we can always get that stuff". The RN came back in and said Dr. G confirmed he wanted me admitted, but he was going to discuss with Dr. M. A little more panic set in... I told the RN the whole reason I'm here is to get the Steroid Shots in case the babies ARE BORN when they switch my meds on Weds. That way it helps give them a little more of a head start. She agreed with me... It's a good thing I was adamant about what was supposed to happen. I told her if the docs want to admit me, I will stay... but that wasn't the plan and I just need confirmation.
At this point Beebs is begging to watch "Elmo". So I find Disney on the tv and we lay in my bed watching "Sophia the First" while Hubs sits next to us trying to get some work done. I think I seriously was freaking out... I texted my Mom the news and ironically she was only working a half day due to a Doc at her office needing to leave for Medical Reasons. At least we'd have someone to come get Ava and bring our stuff. I immediately felt some relief. Finally the RN came back in and confirmed... just the Celestone shot today and tomorrow we'd be admitted Weds... WOOHOO!!!! I mean here I am.. NO SHOWER, because I thought it would be a quick shot and I would go back home and nap since it was earlier than usual, dirty hair, hairy legs, chipped nail polish and no toothbrush!
She left again to get the shot... I started thinking about the last time at 24w and how Day 2 hurt REALLY bad. This is only Day 1 again and it was easy. She grabbed my big ol butt cheek. Not bad. I guess we'll see how tomorrow's goes! I go back in around 10am for the 2nd dose.
I've had a lot of really good days over the weeks. I've of course had a few bad days were I just get really sad. It's more of a selfish pity party for myself. I know this is what's best for the babies, but when I look back at how long this journey has been, it exhausts me. I was on Modified Bed Rest for 5weeks and Strict Bed Rest for almost 4weeks. 9weeks ago I was terrified that these babies might not be able to hold up inside me until the 27/28w mark. It seemed SO FAR AWAY... and here we are! Almost 28w and looking great! I've missed some fun times with friends and family bc I'm stuck on this comfy couch or my bed. I know there will be more fun times next summer... I don't feel bad thinking like this. I'm only human and this isn't a situation I was expecting or prepared for. So considering everything I think I'm handling it really well.
A big part of me is ready to meet these little girls! I know its too early, but I remember feeling like this with Ava. When you find out what you're having, think about names, have a baby shower, decorate the nursery, etc... unfortunately there probably won't be a nursery decorating day. Heck, the babies don't even have their own room. There are tubs and tubs of Ava's baby clothes in the basement, along with her toys, equipment, bottles, etc... I really want to go through everything, but I can't. I feel like I'm missing out on some of the really fun processes you go through when expecting a child and I think that makes me the most sad. I want to Celebrate these little girls BEFORE they come, but it doesn't look like that's going to happen. Every night before bed I check on Ava and say my prayers and say my thanks for all our Blessings. I pray they come as close to 36w as possible... if I make it that far, I'm sure all my restrictions will be released and we can start preparing the way parents should! Whether this is your first child or 5th, all children deserve parents who are excited and ready to prepare for their arrival!
I'll update again tomorrow... this is already getting too long and I'm getting hungry!
xoxo
Friday, July 12, 2013
We hit our next Milestone!!! On to the next!
27w 2d!!!
I get happier and happier when I see how much we are progressing! I didn't get a chance to update Weds appt bc it was a late one and then there was a bad storm rolling through the area. It was bad enough that we had to hold up in the basement! My mom was home alone with Beebs so we didn't want to leave them alone so we drove through all the sirens and eerie skies to get back to my mom's house. Fortunately it blew over in an hour and we went about our day.
Wednesday's appointment was good! The tech we had this week was really funny. We talked a lot during the appointment. At one moment she said here is the tip of her nose and the tips of her lips. Hubs said "where?!" So she showed him again and he said "ooooo I see it now" and then she replied "Do you really or are you just saying that?!" LOL!! The 3 of us laughed so hard about it since she called him out! We FINALLY got face shots of both babies this week. I'm not going to lie, the pics are a little creepy looking, but still beautiful at the same time. As like all weeks both girls looks great. They had strong heartbeats and great measurements. This was a "full ultrasound"- we get them every 3 weeks, where they do all the measurements instead of a "limited u/s" where they just look at a few key areas and move on. Both girls are measuring 28weeks! Baby A was measuring 2lbs 7oz and Baby B was measuring 2lbs 5oz!! The average babies weigh just about 2lbs at this gestation, so that's a great sign for us! If they are born now they are out of the "micro preemie" category! My gf Lyne who is a NICU nurse back in Austin said that once they hit 3lbs, that will make their little journeys easier! We won't get their next estimated weight until I hit 30w. I pray they hold off that long or longer!
As usual, Baby B was all over the place! It's always hard to get her measurements bc she'd rather be dancing and jumping around. They were both head down again this week, but also kinda face up, that's how we were able to get face shots!
My cervical length was measuring stable at 1.9cm. It's been that way since 24w. That's also when I was put on Strict Bed Rest. At least we know that the SBR is working!!!! It's crazy that 3weeks ago things got really scary and even though I'm still measuring the same, its a good sign that it hasn't changed for the worse. My OB appt went pretty quick. I'm up to 205lbs now... wth! I know the babies start gaining more weight, but I need to make some changes. Gaining 2lbs a week is not going to work! How can I say no to ICE CREAM?!?!? :( My Fundal Height (pubic bone to top of Uterus) is measuring at 32w!!! The OB said for twins they like it to be 3-4weeks ahead. No wonder people look at me crazy when I tell them I'm due in October... then I have to add in that I'm expecting twins and I can feel their relief for me! Then its like they realize I said twins and their look of horror turns to sadness for me lol! The thought of twins is still overwhelming for us, but it's even funnier to see others respond... then when we tell them 2 girls and they see our little Beebs, they feel so bad for Marcellus! Haha! It's a big cycle and it cracks me up every time
I go to the Hospital to get my 2nd round of the Celestone (steroid) Shot on Mon and then 24hours later on Tuesday. This is a precaution bc on Weds July 17th I will be admitted for at least 24hours while they take me off the Indocin and put me on Procardia. They want to make sure I don't go into Labor once they take me off the meds- it is currently "relaxing" my Uterus and keeps the contractions at bay. I'm still averaging 2 an hour and they've become a little more intense. Before I would get them and think nothing of it... Now I have to lay back, breathe and relax until it lets up. If I do go into Labor at least I will be at the hospital and had the Steroid Rounds to help the babies out a little more! Obviously I hope they DO NOT make an appearance next week, but at the same time it makes me look forward to adding two more little girls to our family. We may not be "ready" for them like we were for Ava, but it doesn't change the excitement we have!
So now... we look forward to July 17th- 28weeks AND we hope they stay put. Next week is going to be a really big week for us. I think if I can get through the meds switch without going into Labor, these babies will hang on well into the 30+ weeks! Fingers crossed and prayers!
Perhaps we should go through all our stuff from Ava and take inventory. Of course they will need so little at the beginning and most likely have a NICU stay, but if I can't be in control of when they are born, I at least want to be in control of what we have ready for them. Guess we need to start buying a 2nd item of everything we already have!
I get happier and happier when I see how much we are progressing! I didn't get a chance to update Weds appt bc it was a late one and then there was a bad storm rolling through the area. It was bad enough that we had to hold up in the basement! My mom was home alone with Beebs so we didn't want to leave them alone so we drove through all the sirens and eerie skies to get back to my mom's house. Fortunately it blew over in an hour and we went about our day.
Wednesday's appointment was good! The tech we had this week was really funny. We talked a lot during the appointment. At one moment she said here is the tip of her nose and the tips of her lips. Hubs said "where?!" So she showed him again and he said "ooooo I see it now" and then she replied "Do you really or are you just saying that?!" LOL!! The 3 of us laughed so hard about it since she called him out! We FINALLY got face shots of both babies this week. I'm not going to lie, the pics are a little creepy looking, but still beautiful at the same time. As like all weeks both girls looks great. They had strong heartbeats and great measurements. This was a "full ultrasound"- we get them every 3 weeks, where they do all the measurements instead of a "limited u/s" where they just look at a few key areas and move on. Both girls are measuring 28weeks! Baby A was measuring 2lbs 7oz and Baby B was measuring 2lbs 5oz!! The average babies weigh just about 2lbs at this gestation, so that's a great sign for us! If they are born now they are out of the "micro preemie" category! My gf Lyne who is a NICU nurse back in Austin said that once they hit 3lbs, that will make their little journeys easier! We won't get their next estimated weight until I hit 30w. I pray they hold off that long or longer!
As usual, Baby B was all over the place! It's always hard to get her measurements bc she'd rather be dancing and jumping around. They were both head down again this week, but also kinda face up, that's how we were able to get face shots!
My cervical length was measuring stable at 1.9cm. It's been that way since 24w. That's also when I was put on Strict Bed Rest. At least we know that the SBR is working!!!! It's crazy that 3weeks ago things got really scary and even though I'm still measuring the same, its a good sign that it hasn't changed for the worse. My OB appt went pretty quick. I'm up to 205lbs now... wth! I know the babies start gaining more weight, but I need to make some changes. Gaining 2lbs a week is not going to work! How can I say no to ICE CREAM?!?!? :( My Fundal Height (pubic bone to top of Uterus) is measuring at 32w!!! The OB said for twins they like it to be 3-4weeks ahead. No wonder people look at me crazy when I tell them I'm due in October... then I have to add in that I'm expecting twins and I can feel their relief for me! Then its like they realize I said twins and their look of horror turns to sadness for me lol! The thought of twins is still overwhelming for us, but it's even funnier to see others respond... then when we tell them 2 girls and they see our little Beebs, they feel so bad for Marcellus! Haha! It's a big cycle and it cracks me up every time
I go to the Hospital to get my 2nd round of the Celestone (steroid) Shot on Mon and then 24hours later on Tuesday. This is a precaution bc on Weds July 17th I will be admitted for at least 24hours while they take me off the Indocin and put me on Procardia. They want to make sure I don't go into Labor once they take me off the meds- it is currently "relaxing" my Uterus and keeps the contractions at bay. I'm still averaging 2 an hour and they've become a little more intense. Before I would get them and think nothing of it... Now I have to lay back, breathe and relax until it lets up. If I do go into Labor at least I will be at the hospital and had the Steroid Rounds to help the babies out a little more! Obviously I hope they DO NOT make an appearance next week, but at the same time it makes me look forward to adding two more little girls to our family. We may not be "ready" for them like we were for Ava, but it doesn't change the excitement we have!
So now... we look forward to July 17th- 28weeks AND we hope they stay put. Next week is going to be a really big week for us. I think if I can get through the meds switch without going into Labor, these babies will hang on well into the 30+ weeks! Fingers crossed and prayers!
Perhaps we should go through all our stuff from Ava and take inventory. Of course they will need so little at the beginning and most likely have a NICU stay, but if I can't be in control of when they are born, I at least want to be in control of what we have ready for them. Guess we need to start buying a 2nd item of everything we already have!
Monday, July 8, 2013
Hall Pass:: Date Night and Pool Time!
26w 5d!
Everyday is more exciting and closer to our goal! It makes being on Bed Rest seem more tolerable knowing that we're doing great.
I had another great weekend. I really can't believe how amazing my family & friends are. Their support and love for not only me & the Tweebs, but for Beebs and my Husband is overwhelming. I cashed in my "hall pass" from the Doc on Saturday Night. I really wanted to get out and go to Starbucks and sit outside. Since it was so close to dinner Hubs asked if I was comfortable enough to go out to eat first. So we went to Outback! I'm glad I decided to put on some makeup and fix my hair. It's amazing how great it feels when you put on some mascara and blush. I wore one of my favorite Maxi dresses. Although it's just a simple black knit dress, I felt "sexy" in it even though it outlined every bump (good & bad) of my body. I normally wear a maternity tank top or tshirt with yoga pants, so it was a good switch. The food was delicious! I ate enough bread that I'm pretty sure my belly is making beer from all the yeast. Our server was super nice and asked when I'm due... I told her October and like everyone else, she *gasped* and said... "o honey"... I then told her it was twins and she felt relieved lol. It never gets old to see people gape at my big ol belly bc they always assume it's just one.
After dinner we went to Starbucks. I was feeling bold and told Hubs I wanted to sit outside instead of his SUV. I was really ambitious... Him & Beebs brought out the drinks and I think I lasted all but 3 swigs from my drink before I was way to hot and suggested we get back in the car. Marcellus just laughed and said ok, let's go drive around. I had been feeling great so I said let's go. We drove up to the Portage Lakes and circled around. I had no idea Beebs would become OBSESSED with seeing the water and boats from her car window as we drove... so obsessed that every time we got past the water she started yelling "MO MO, MO WA WA, PEAS" (more more, more water, please). It started out cute and then before you know it we're frantically driving around looking for somewhere to park just to appease her! After 30mins we decided that we should probably get back to I could put my feet up... I think Beebs continued to ask for "Mo Wa Wa" until she realized we were in Deda's allotment. We might have only been gone a couple hours, but it was a great outing and much needed. I can't remember the last time we went out to eat as a family, especially where I had myself together!
Sunday was another great day. My gf Annie came over to visit in the morning while our guys went golfing. She's 18weeks pregnant so it was fun to share stories. She asked a lot of questions about what was going on with me and I didn't want to scare her. I'm pretty sure she was ok with it... The way I look at it... whatever is supposed to happen with your pregnancy will happen regardless if you worry or not. Jesley and her daughter also stopped by! The brought delicious "ice cream cupcakes" from Cold Stone Creamery. Yummmm! Beebs & Jess' daughter, Sidnee played nonstop. Ava needed that :) and I needed some girl gossip time! When the guys came back, Hubs cooked out for us... we all ate lunch and everyone headed home. Just when I thought we already had a great day, My cousin Danny texted that him and his gf wanted to stop by. Talk about having a full heart! I really felt the love. They came over and we talked and laughed the whole time. They also absolutely adore Beebs. She was sleeping when he texted me and I didn't want to tell him she was napping bc they might have changed their minds hahah! She woke up and they got to spend some much needed time with them. After they left, Deda got back so Beebs spent the rest of the night outside with her. It's almost like Ava knows we were in Texas, so far from our family and she wants to make up for all the lost time with my mom :)
Why is it that when something "weird" happens to you in the middle of the night you convince yourself you're dying?! I took my Indo at 4am like every night and I felt like something was stuck in my throat. I downed all my water and still had the feeling... I kept thinking the pill was stuck in my throat and it was going to dissolve and relax my throat and I was going to choke on my own saliva or something! I opened a bottle of water (I have a stash along with PB crackers in the nightstand... just in case!) still no relief. My thoughts then went from having a lump in my throat to ghosts in the house. Why? I didn't even hear anything. I kept thinking if I go to the bathroom for more water, there is a chance I could run into a ghost. Then what? Then I can't scream bc I have this damn lump in my throat and I'm screwed... so I decided to just stay in bed... Until I had to pee. This is generally how my nights go.
I did "google" the Lump in throat with my Meds bc I know the Indo can cause reflux (My docs have me taking Pepcid 2x a day to prevent) and if you lay flat after taking the pill, the reflux can come up and irritate your vocal chords... hence the lump in the throat. I should probably go to Med School after all this.
Today was another great day. I already cashed in my "date night" with Hubs so today Swiss, Beebs & I cashed in our "pool day" today! Brooke's friend Jenna has a super nice pool. She was at work, but her mom was home and said we could still come over. It was much needed. Swimming in the water and not having the little annoying pregnancy pains was relaxing. Not to mention the best part was that I got to hold Ava! The only time I hold her now is if she sits on my lap, facing me and has a picnic on my belly. Since she was practically weightless in the water, as was I... I got to hold her and pull her around the pool. She would grab me around the neck and kiss my face all over. I think she realized too just how long its been that I've held her like that. That was by far my favorite part of the day. Being able to hold her and be silly like we used too!! By the end of our pool time she started getting more "brave" and tried jumping off the steps. She had a few mouthfuls of water, but she didn't care! I think its time we got her some swimming lessons!
Overall I'm still feeling good mentally & physically. I still have my moments of what ifs... what if they come early, just because they hit viability, will they be ok? Physically my body feels worn out. The contractions are still 2-3an hour, but they are becoming more intense. They aren't painful, but enough that I have to sit back and breathe in and out and calm myself. My stomach also feels like I just got done doing 1,000 crunches. Of course I'll bring these up at my next appt. The Heparin Injections are still going well, but my stomach is becoming a little more bruised and sensitive to the touch. My hotbox feels like its going to rip open when I stand up to pee. I generally have to collect myself before I can walk and then once I do, each step feels like my pubic bones are separating...
I feel as though bed rest has been tolerable. I do believe a lot of has to do with the amazing support system around us. Between my Hubs, Mom & Sister (& Candy Crush and NO- I won't link to FB!!) who do so much on a daily basis, mixed in with other friends and family that ALWAYS step in to help them out... I can't complain. Of course I miss my freedoms and fun, but it's paying off... 27w on Weds, and that is a GREAT place to be in!
Everyday is more exciting and closer to our goal! It makes being on Bed Rest seem more tolerable knowing that we're doing great.
I had another great weekend. I really can't believe how amazing my family & friends are. Their support and love for not only me & the Tweebs, but for Beebs and my Husband is overwhelming. I cashed in my "hall pass" from the Doc on Saturday Night. I really wanted to get out and go to Starbucks and sit outside. Since it was so close to dinner Hubs asked if I was comfortable enough to go out to eat first. So we went to Outback! I'm glad I decided to put on some makeup and fix my hair. It's amazing how great it feels when you put on some mascara and blush. I wore one of my favorite Maxi dresses. Although it's just a simple black knit dress, I felt "sexy" in it even though it outlined every bump (good & bad) of my body. I normally wear a maternity tank top or tshirt with yoga pants, so it was a good switch. The food was delicious! I ate enough bread that I'm pretty sure my belly is making beer from all the yeast. Our server was super nice and asked when I'm due... I told her October and like everyone else, she *gasped* and said... "o honey"... I then told her it was twins and she felt relieved lol. It never gets old to see people gape at my big ol belly bc they always assume it's just one.
After dinner we went to Starbucks. I was feeling bold and told Hubs I wanted to sit outside instead of his SUV. I was really ambitious... Him & Beebs brought out the drinks and I think I lasted all but 3 swigs from my drink before I was way to hot and suggested we get back in the car. Marcellus just laughed and said ok, let's go drive around. I had been feeling great so I said let's go. We drove up to the Portage Lakes and circled around. I had no idea Beebs would become OBSESSED with seeing the water and boats from her car window as we drove... so obsessed that every time we got past the water she started yelling "MO MO, MO WA WA, PEAS" (more more, more water, please). It started out cute and then before you know it we're frantically driving around looking for somewhere to park just to appease her! After 30mins we decided that we should probably get back to I could put my feet up... I think Beebs continued to ask for "Mo Wa Wa" until she realized we were in Deda's allotment. We might have only been gone a couple hours, but it was a great outing and much needed. I can't remember the last time we went out to eat as a family, especially where I had myself together!
Sunday was another great day. My gf Annie came over to visit in the morning while our guys went golfing. She's 18weeks pregnant so it was fun to share stories. She asked a lot of questions about what was going on with me and I didn't want to scare her. I'm pretty sure she was ok with it... The way I look at it... whatever is supposed to happen with your pregnancy will happen regardless if you worry or not. Jesley and her daughter also stopped by! The brought delicious "ice cream cupcakes" from Cold Stone Creamery. Yummmm! Beebs & Jess' daughter, Sidnee played nonstop. Ava needed that :) and I needed some girl gossip time! When the guys came back, Hubs cooked out for us... we all ate lunch and everyone headed home. Just when I thought we already had a great day, My cousin Danny texted that him and his gf wanted to stop by. Talk about having a full heart! I really felt the love. They came over and we talked and laughed the whole time. They also absolutely adore Beebs. She was sleeping when he texted me and I didn't want to tell him she was napping bc they might have changed their minds hahah! She woke up and they got to spend some much needed time with them. After they left, Deda got back so Beebs spent the rest of the night outside with her. It's almost like Ava knows we were in Texas, so far from our family and she wants to make up for all the lost time with my mom :)
Why is it that when something "weird" happens to you in the middle of the night you convince yourself you're dying?! I took my Indo at 4am like every night and I felt like something was stuck in my throat. I downed all my water and still had the feeling... I kept thinking the pill was stuck in my throat and it was going to dissolve and relax my throat and I was going to choke on my own saliva or something! I opened a bottle of water (I have a stash along with PB crackers in the nightstand... just in case!) still no relief. My thoughts then went from having a lump in my throat to ghosts in the house. Why? I didn't even hear anything. I kept thinking if I go to the bathroom for more water, there is a chance I could run into a ghost. Then what? Then I can't scream bc I have this damn lump in my throat and I'm screwed... so I decided to just stay in bed... Until I had to pee. This is generally how my nights go.
I did "google" the Lump in throat with my Meds bc I know the Indo can cause reflux (My docs have me taking Pepcid 2x a day to prevent) and if you lay flat after taking the pill, the reflux can come up and irritate your vocal chords... hence the lump in the throat. I should probably go to Med School after all this.
Today was another great day. I already cashed in my "date night" with Hubs so today Swiss, Beebs & I cashed in our "pool day" today! Brooke's friend Jenna has a super nice pool. She was at work, but her mom was home and said we could still come over. It was much needed. Swimming in the water and not having the little annoying pregnancy pains was relaxing. Not to mention the best part was that I got to hold Ava! The only time I hold her now is if she sits on my lap, facing me and has a picnic on my belly. Since she was practically weightless in the water, as was I... I got to hold her and pull her around the pool. She would grab me around the neck and kiss my face all over. I think she realized too just how long its been that I've held her like that. That was by far my favorite part of the day. Being able to hold her and be silly like we used too!! By the end of our pool time she started getting more "brave" and tried jumping off the steps. She had a few mouthfuls of water, but she didn't care! I think its time we got her some swimming lessons!
Overall I'm still feeling good mentally & physically. I still have my moments of what ifs... what if they come early, just because they hit viability, will they be ok? Physically my body feels worn out. The contractions are still 2-3an hour, but they are becoming more intense. They aren't painful, but enough that I have to sit back and breathe in and out and calm myself. My stomach also feels like I just got done doing 1,000 crunches. Of course I'll bring these up at my next appt. The Heparin Injections are still going well, but my stomach is becoming a little more bruised and sensitive to the touch. My hotbox feels like its going to rip open when I stand up to pee. I generally have to collect myself before I can walk and then once I do, each step feels like my pubic bones are separating...
I feel as though bed rest has been tolerable. I do believe a lot of has to do with the amazing support system around us. Between my Hubs, Mom & Sister (& Candy Crush and NO- I won't link to FB!!) who do so much on a daily basis, mixed in with other friends and family that ALWAYS step in to help them out... I can't complain. Of course I miss my freedoms and fun, but it's paying off... 27w on Weds, and that is a GREAT place to be in!
All dressed up for Date Night!!!
Friday, July 5, 2013
Happy 4th of July!
26w 2d
Technically July 4th was yesterday, but I didn't get a chance to blog. We had an impromptu family cook out at my Mom's. There was soooooo much delicious food. I definitely didn't short change myself on meat, corn or desserts. I'm pretty sure the babies loved it all as much as me!
The babies have been moving NONSTOP... I love it! Sometimes it's a really weird feeling, like they are rolling around and sometimes I wonder if they are going to kick open their sacs and bust through my belly! When they are both moving at the same time it feels like they are fighting already and saying... "Mom, she's touching me through her sac!!!!" I feel movement down in my Vag too... that's the weirdest feeling. Sometimes even a little scary. With Beebs, she moved a lot, but she also had breaks where she didn't. Since I've got two gummy bears in there it feels as though there is barely a time I don't feel movement. They especially get mad when I lie on my side to sleep at night. The baby closest to the side I'm laying on seems to kick and squiggle in protest until I put a little pillow to take the pressure off.
Our 26w appt was on Weds. It was a good appt, but didn't start out as such. My Mom, Swiss & Beebs went with me this week. Hubs had an opportunity to go golfing with his bestie so I said he should go! It was a later appointment and I also had a new tech this time... not "new" to the company, but new to me. It was a man this time. He was really nice as like the others. The babies both looked great again with strong heartbeats and lots of movements. They were both head down and their heads looked like they were almost touching! We still didn't get a face shot bc BA was facing back and BB was hiding and she was kinda facing back too.
He called in a female tech while he did the trans vag u/s. I was a little nervous to have him do it... not bc he's a man, but bc his hands were a little "shaky"... I thought this scan is not going to end up good if he's shaking that magic wand inside my hotbox. I saw his measurements and immediately started to cry... .98cm & 1.1cm. My all time lowest. I confirmed the #'s with him and he said, this is what I measured, but Dr. G will probably want to rescan you. So he left to get the doctor... it was a long wait so I texted hubs the news, but that we were waiting on Dr. G to rescan me. I was really worried I was going to be admitted that day. Hubs sent me a emoji icon face text of a "surprised look". I could tell he was worried too. He tried calling, but the doc came in.
Dr. G rescanned me himself... confusingly enough he measured me back at 1.9cm. He said there was a chance the tech didn't have the full view or perhaps there was more pressure on my cervix at that point. When Dr. G pushed on my belly near my pubic area the cervix shortened dramatically as we watched the screen and the funnel opened more. When he let go it went back. I was still all upset to see the original scan so even after hearing the good news I wasn't 100% convinced... I watched the tech scan me and NO I'm not a Sonographer, but after getting these scans every Weds for the past 7weeks and then every other Weds before that, I feel like I'm "familiar". Of course I trust him and the other doctors, but when you're "worked up" it's hard to change your thought process. I was running through things in my head like... what underwear I'll need them to bring me in the hospital, my belly & baby books, jenmay's kindle, my laptop, what about AVA, etc... I had myself convinced I would be staying.
We went up to my appt and I saw Dr. K. He talked to me about my concerns with the scan measurements... all 3 Docs have great bedside manner. I could tell Dr. K seemed busy, but he took his time to talk to me about everything again and why they were going with the 1.9cm. So, since that's my measurement, they said I've stayed "stable" for 3weeks now and he gave a few lifts off my restrictions. Still Strict Bed Rest, but I'm allowed to go to a POOL once a week!!! and get out of the house for a car ride occasionally... still no shopping or time on my feet, but I'm not sequestered to my bed or recliner 24/7. Even though this made me happy, I still feel uneasy. I've seen first hand how fast things can change so even though I had a tad more freedom I think I'll still stick to the script as much as possible. Plus Hubs doesn't want to risk anything so he might be more strict than the docs! I'm starting to get to a semi-comfortable place. I won't 100% be at ease until I hit at least 32w... so for now, its hang out and hold on!
I also gained 3lbs in a week and so I am officially 202lbs and hit the 200 mark... BLAH! Owell, my weight gain has been really good and considering I'm not active, I'll take it. I just need to watch a little more. I get two more Steroid Shots the week of the 15th and then on July 17th I will be admitted for 24+ hours while the docs take me off Indomethican and put me on Procordia. This is to make sure that when the Indo is out of my system I don't go into labor before they can start the Procardia. Which does the same thing, but it used further in gestation and Indo can only be used up to 28w. I'm confident it's not time for the babies to be born so I'm sure my body will adjust well. It is weird though to think that once they take me off the Meds that I could go into Labor and have these babies so close to my Birthday! That would be crazy!
The house is quiet right now. Beebs went to get some food with Deda, Swiss & my stepdad and Hubs just left with a College Buddy to have a few drinks with some of their friends. It's just Logan (the dog) & I and I'm ok haha!! Being alone occasionally isn't so bad :)
Happy 4th from my family to yours!
Technically July 4th was yesterday, but I didn't get a chance to blog. We had an impromptu family cook out at my Mom's. There was soooooo much delicious food. I definitely didn't short change myself on meat, corn or desserts. I'm pretty sure the babies loved it all as much as me!
The babies have been moving NONSTOP... I love it! Sometimes it's a really weird feeling, like they are rolling around and sometimes I wonder if they are going to kick open their sacs and bust through my belly! When they are both moving at the same time it feels like they are fighting already and saying... "Mom, she's touching me through her sac!!!!" I feel movement down in my Vag too... that's the weirdest feeling. Sometimes even a little scary. With Beebs, she moved a lot, but she also had breaks where she didn't. Since I've got two gummy bears in there it feels as though there is barely a time I don't feel movement. They especially get mad when I lie on my side to sleep at night. The baby closest to the side I'm laying on seems to kick and squiggle in protest until I put a little pillow to take the pressure off.
Our 26w appt was on Weds. It was a good appt, but didn't start out as such. My Mom, Swiss & Beebs went with me this week. Hubs had an opportunity to go golfing with his bestie so I said he should go! It was a later appointment and I also had a new tech this time... not "new" to the company, but new to me. It was a man this time. He was really nice as like the others. The babies both looked great again with strong heartbeats and lots of movements. They were both head down and their heads looked like they were almost touching! We still didn't get a face shot bc BA was facing back and BB was hiding and she was kinda facing back too.
He called in a female tech while he did the trans vag u/s. I was a little nervous to have him do it... not bc he's a man, but bc his hands were a little "shaky"... I thought this scan is not going to end up good if he's shaking that magic wand inside my hotbox. I saw his measurements and immediately started to cry... .98cm & 1.1cm. My all time lowest. I confirmed the #'s with him and he said, this is what I measured, but Dr. G will probably want to rescan you. So he left to get the doctor... it was a long wait so I texted hubs the news, but that we were waiting on Dr. G to rescan me. I was really worried I was going to be admitted that day. Hubs sent me a emoji icon face text of a "surprised look". I could tell he was worried too. He tried calling, but the doc came in.
Dr. G rescanned me himself... confusingly enough he measured me back at 1.9cm. He said there was a chance the tech didn't have the full view or perhaps there was more pressure on my cervix at that point. When Dr. G pushed on my belly near my pubic area the cervix shortened dramatically as we watched the screen and the funnel opened more. When he let go it went back. I was still all upset to see the original scan so even after hearing the good news I wasn't 100% convinced... I watched the tech scan me and NO I'm not a Sonographer, but after getting these scans every Weds for the past 7weeks and then every other Weds before that, I feel like I'm "familiar". Of course I trust him and the other doctors, but when you're "worked up" it's hard to change your thought process. I was running through things in my head like... what underwear I'll need them to bring me in the hospital, my belly & baby books, jenmay's kindle, my laptop, what about AVA, etc... I had myself convinced I would be staying.
We went up to my appt and I saw Dr. K. He talked to me about my concerns with the scan measurements... all 3 Docs have great bedside manner. I could tell Dr. K seemed busy, but he took his time to talk to me about everything again and why they were going with the 1.9cm. So, since that's my measurement, they said I've stayed "stable" for 3weeks now and he gave a few lifts off my restrictions. Still Strict Bed Rest, but I'm allowed to go to a POOL once a week!!! and get out of the house for a car ride occasionally... still no shopping or time on my feet, but I'm not sequestered to my bed or recliner 24/7. Even though this made me happy, I still feel uneasy. I've seen first hand how fast things can change so even though I had a tad more freedom I think I'll still stick to the script as much as possible. Plus Hubs doesn't want to risk anything so he might be more strict than the docs! I'm starting to get to a semi-comfortable place. I won't 100% be at ease until I hit at least 32w... so for now, its hang out and hold on!
I also gained 3lbs in a week and so I am officially 202lbs and hit the 200 mark... BLAH! Owell, my weight gain has been really good and considering I'm not active, I'll take it. I just need to watch a little more. I get two more Steroid Shots the week of the 15th and then on July 17th I will be admitted for 24+ hours while the docs take me off Indomethican and put me on Procordia. This is to make sure that when the Indo is out of my system I don't go into labor before they can start the Procardia. Which does the same thing, but it used further in gestation and Indo can only be used up to 28w. I'm confident it's not time for the babies to be born so I'm sure my body will adjust well. It is weird though to think that once they take me off the Meds that I could go into Labor and have these babies so close to my Birthday! That would be crazy!
The house is quiet right now. Beebs went to get some food with Deda, Swiss & my stepdad and Hubs just left with a College Buddy to have a few drinks with some of their friends. It's just Logan (the dog) & I and I'm ok haha!! Being alone occasionally isn't so bad :)
Happy 4th from my family to yours!
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